August 01st, 2024

I realized a force inside me that reminded me of a hamster on a hamster wheel. I am supposed to take notice of these flashing red lights.
It explains why sometimes I am frustrated and angry. I struggle, not getting what I want, then I become agitated and depressed.
My “aha” moment came on a particular morning when I realized I was running down the wrong path for what I needed.
Jesus was calling me because He knew what I needed and that I needed to run to Him. He is relentless and doesn't want me to delay. He doesn't want me to run towards something that won't satisfy or fulfill.
The love, the satisfaction, the peace, the joy, the gentleness, the kindness, the self-control, and whatever else I am running frantically after He wants to provide. I must perceive this each day so I know who to turn to.
He waits.
As I take my eyes off Him and focus on other things, He KNOWS.
He knows my pain and He waits. He KNOWS He is the healer.
He knows my grief and what I am experiencing. He waits. He KNOWS He is the comforter.
What I can’t solve and what I can’t control. He waits. He KNOWS He is wise and sovereign.
He waits. He KNOWS He is satisfaction and peace.
If I am looking to man to satisfy what only God can satiate, I will be disappointed. ONLY God can meet my needs and desires. God placed this thirst in me. He wants me to seek Him.
It would be great if the people in my life could meet this need, this thirst, this ache. I could pull alongside and say, “Fill it up”.  
I have a loving Father who desires an intimate relationship with me.
He wants to connect with my heart and fill me with His Spirit. He is the only one who can satisfy my heart. God created my heart. The moment I believed in Jesus, He placed His Spirit there and sealed it. By sealing it, He made a promise to me to never leave me. (Deut. 31:6, Hebrews 13:5). He is faithful.
God is waiting patiently. All I have to do is turn and run to Him. I need to run and not delay. He is my rescue. He is waiting because He is the answer.
I need to stop in my tracks, give up, and surrender – accepting my situation as reality – as God sees it – and trust Jesus that He is enough!
Whatever I am struggling with and trying to handle on my own, Jesus is what I need.
He already died for ALL that I am going to walk through – past, present, and future, and now I GET TO walk through all the scenes of my life WITH HIM.
I need to bring my heart into submission to Jesus because He is waiting.
“Jesus, You are my rescue. You know my fretting, striving, and what I am chasing after to get my needs met. Thank you for giving me this angst in my heart, this yearning, this thirst, this ache so I can run to you to have you satisfy it. Thank you for being relentless.
I love you, Jesus!
I surrender to you.
In Jesus’ Name
Amen.”